To mai dearest carmel darling,
is nt i forcing u to stay at bedok. is just tt is too far for mi frm bedok to go to woodlands, n i'm nt forcing u to go back KL cux i dun wan u here is for yr own gd. u think this way, yes mayb u cant c mi mayb for months or wat la. but think u wanna work here n u cant c resulot at all or go back KL n do business u cn have more freedom, dun nit to worry yr rental fees la, yr lateness la, yr this ar yr tt la. think abt wat i say in mai blog. Is nt i dun have reason of askin u to go back. in sg yr expenses is too high. n i feel lyk i'm a burden to u. u understand? u understand i dun wan any help frm anybody, u understand i wanna b strong, u understand i just wanna do everything by maiself. dun wanna accept any help frm any1 anymore le, u cn ask cm. last tym i everything ask for help frm other. i had enuff le. feel lyk i'm a beggar. yes i'm yr lao po. but for once yr lao po wanna be strong lyk cm's mom. i really very admire her. as a woman she is very very very successful. i wanna b lyk her. cn carry up mai family de burden. u dun c i lyk very very carefree lyk tt.. actually i gt alot of things nit to handle. i think most of it u noe le. i state some example,
1. mai dad's de debt
2. mai sis school fees
3. mai internet n phone bills
4. PUB
5. mai sis extra expenses
6. own expenses
7. housing loans.
by right i have to help them bit by bit. but until nw i did help by is nt regularly.
i dun wan mai parents to worry bout mi. even they nv. everything cm wil tel mi "mahjong tke a break la. too much things u nit to handle liao." but i was thinking. last tym i was e highest income lei. if i dun help. hu cn? mai sis stil studying. i cannot ask a schooling person to lessen mai burden. i noe hw it feel. cux whn i was in schooling tt tym. i kena once. tt's really really very tough. nt easy at all. i dun wan mai sis to b lyk mi. sorry i noe u dun lyk to read long long essay. but this r e things i wanna tel u. if u wanna stay in sg, den u have to listen to hadi n john they all. cux they have hope in u. especially in lili. cux i heard they say she stil have high hope in u. y they choose u instead of alvin? cux of yr english. in sg english says everything. think properly. whether u wanna tke mai advice. okie i nw go to bed le. tml den meet u. nite den. sweet dreams.
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Once in a while, in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale Don't frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. |
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